"Mama, I'm feeling a little better"

That was what I heard last night at 10pm. What wonderful news! Trina is feeling better. She was able to come over to Cameo's yesterday to hang out. Yes, she slept on the couch, but she was able to get out of her house for a few hours and eat, alot! Her appetite is poor when the drugs are working, and only eats enough so she can take her meds. But Monday at Cameo's she ate! Alot! Then last night she called me at 10pm to tell me she was even better. I was so happy to hear that because she calls me at night to talk over what she should take, what cocktail of drugs will help her the most at that time. And she didn't need any! She was feeling better. She still had aching bones, but she hates to take her pain meds if she can get through it at all without them. By the 4th day of taking her pain meds she is always having a bad headache from them, so trys hard not to take them on her "good days". She is so postive and a blessing to us all!!! This is her "week off" from chemo, and with God's blessings she will be better every day.

Last week after seeing her bone scans, it was just like you could see the bad cancer cells swarming around in her body. Her bones were covered. But again God showed me a precious verse in Psalms that gave me faith that He is healing her.
Psalms 118: NIV
12 They swarmed around me like bees, but they died out as quickly as burning thorns; in the name of the Lord, I cut them down.
16 The Lord's right hand is lifted high; the Lord's right has done mighty things.
17 I will not die, but live, and will proclaim what the Lord has done.

I am so weak, but with God's strength, I am strong. I hate cancer! I hate seeing my dear daughter so weak from treatment! I just pray for more faith. I thank God for my family and their strength. Together with God, we will get through this trial, and be stronger on the other side. I pray for fear and doubt to leave me and to be replaced with faith and love.

It is so hard for me to write these things. I am so private in my thoughts but I feel the need to write about the blessings that God has given us through this. Even little Asa and Valentina have started to say " thank God" for the littlest things. I guess they are listening to us and the 50 times a day we say that. Papa always "amen" instead, and we are waiting for the kids to start saying that. Trina always smiles when papa says that. We are all changed. Thank God!

One cute story about Asa. He loves popcicles, the ones with riddles and jokes on the sticks. The other day Josh read him the riddle. Who can stop a speeding car? Asa replies right away, "God". How cute! Yesterday when I was driving him home he asked me "When did God make you? When I said "1952", he then asked about all of us and I had to give him the year we were all born. Asa is listening. Even little Valentina has started with "thank God" at times.

I am going to spend the day at Trina's today since Josh works all day, but maybe she will want to go out alittle bit. Maybe lunch out? We will see.

Please keep praying that God will kill out the swarms of bees (cancer) in her body. Thank you!!!!!

God is Good!

Thanking God

I am thanking God for everything He gives us. Everything.
He is so good to us. I thank Him for His Word, His comfort, His promises, and yes even for letting us go through these terrible trials because without trials, we would not have thankfulness!

There are so many miracles in this trial we are going through, I want to list just a few today:
Trina's strength and attitude! It is truly amazing and we can see God living in her daily.
Cameo's faith and hope. Only God can do that.
My peace and comfort, that can only come from God!!!!!
Papa's peace and strength, what a difference in a few weeks.
Trina's brain scan clean. After seeing the bone scan and how full it is of cancer, only God could have kept it from her brain.
The promises He shows me. What wonderful promises He gives me just when I need them.

I pray that I do not put limits on the wonderous things that God can do. He can and is doing wonderous things. I do not want to limit God, so:

I am inviting you all to join me in praying for Trina's complete healing. I am praying for her tumor markers to be normal next time they are taken in two weeks. I know God has His own timeline, and I am ok with that. But I do not want to limit what He can do!!!!!!!!!

I am also asking for Cameo to be healed. She has such terrible pain everyday with her fusion and this stress makes it so much worse. Please pray for healing for her as well.

I am thanking God today for His love and peace He has given us all!

God is Good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Praying for:
good test results,
good Dr. appt.,
good chemo treatment
and strength, peace and joy.
Please continue to pray for both my girls.

God is Good.

Thank You

Thank you for your prayers and comments. Dr. Oncology was really encouraging and supportive today. Trina loves him and Josh thinks he is very smart. It is in the early stages of the vertebra and he is confident the chemo can get rid of it. Dr. said that it was teamwork with God. He also said he had seen miracles many times. That was nice to hear from him.

I am still concerned about the brain scan, but having faith in God. I believe he will heal her in His time. I need to persevere like Job and to have faith like Abraham when he was told he would be a father in old age. He did not doubt. I feel so guilty when I have a lapse of faith.

Trina is feeling so good tonight. Her father in laws wife had prayers said for her in her church in West Virginia tonight. I thank God for all the prayers being offered up for her by all of you.

Keep up the prayers for my girls please and thank you in advance.

God is Good. :)

I need to be strong

I need prayers tonight. I dread the Dr.Oncology appts. so much. Trina has another round of chemo tomorrow and we see Dr. Gloom. Trina loves him, so I guess I should too, but it is hard for me to like someone that always had bad news to share about my little girl.



Pray Trina's brain scan is clean, please. Trina told me today she really does not want to have cancer in her brain. Oh I wish I could spare all this from her.



Pray for Cameo too please, this is so hard on her. When Trina had cancer the first time, she turned into Trina's second mother.



Trina's pain was less today, and we even went to JCP's and she bought some cute loungewear. She is so strong. She went 8 hours without pain meds and then only took half a dose.



I need to be so strong for my girls, and today, I need some prayers. I don't know how much more I can go through. I do have faith that she will be ok, but it still is hard sometimes. Thank you.

Please Pray Again or Still.....

Please pray for Trina's brain scan to be ok. They are scheduling a brain scan on Monday because the mri showed it has moved to her vertebrae.

Please we need many prayers for the cancer to leave her!!!! I have faith in God that she will be ok in the end. God has promised me in Psalms 41: 1-3 that he "will be with her on her sick bed and restore her from her bed of illness." NIV Please claim that verse with me.

She is very tired from the chemo, and has pain in her spine, but her spirits are pretty good considering all she has been though. She is on diladid. (sp?)

Please pray for Cameo too, she is so completely without hope and her faith in God is very distant right now.

I love my girls so much and wish so bad that it was me, and not Trina.